Be Whole Now!



We are living in unprecedented times. We are being asked to step up as never before and face such chaos and confusion within our world, within our relationships, within ourselves that we are challenged, and shaken deep to our core. This is not a time to hold back any more, all of my senses tell me this.

Recently I experienced a deep upheaval- during this time I kept hearing the words ‘ It is time, it is time.’ And I wondered what for……

So now I am going to share regular channelled words and writings, for my guides, my spiritual self and my knowings, to share and explore what needs to be heard, felt and examined, as it is time… for me to step up, for us all to step up, to be myself and share from my heart to yours….  Now is not the time for me to be invisible any more. Even though I am not sure yet what this phrase means, I am opening to all the possibilities and taking my own leap of faith..

The huge massive phrase I hold deep in my heart  is…

‘Be whole now’-

This is the new mantra for our time, it is time to be ‘whole’  and to remove the fragmentation from our body, soul, spirit,  sex, emotion and being.  We have been fragmented for too long.

Whenever I feel disjointed, it is because I come from a place of separation- an ancient, long created separation where sex and spirit, masculine or yang, and feminine or yin, earth and heaven, light and dark, inner and outer are all divided.  Where somewhere in our history and cosmos, there occurred a split which divided us, divided our lives, our earth and our bodies.  We experienced a profound split between sex and spirit, and have been unable to recognise since that time,  the deepest spiritual part of ourselves which is our sexuality.  We split between masculine and feminine, believing they were divided and could not be harmonious within us and without.  We split the outer and the inner, head and heart, feeling the world as focused on the doing side of life , not recognising the invisible, the emotional, the visionary or the energetic .  But this is not true life any more.  Life, the earth, our way, is changing.   The deep feminine is returning, and with it a sense of integration for both men and women, a deeper sense of wholeness, fullness and expansion, like we have never seen before.  We are ready, even if we feel we are not. We are ready, to feel whole, to believe in  our true use of our senses and our bodies.  We deserve this..

Each one of us holds, within ourselves, the key to reclaiming this wholeness and healing the split, the separation and fragmentation in all of our being, which causes us to believe we are separate and not connected.  It is an ancient inheritance which needs to change, for it leads to a sense of aloneness,  apartness, and often a sheer diminishing of who we are in every capacity.  We do not deserve this any  more.  We deserve now to reclaim our wholeness, our magnificent expanded self which incorporates all these parts which were separated many many millions of years ago.

When I say in my new mantra ‘I am whole’, I begin to feel, to glimpse, to embrace my true radiant being, linked to who I truly am in every moment, what our world truly is and what all of us are capable of.  When I feel myself embracing ‘I am whole’ then  I know and feel where I can embrace and reach my true magnificence without these ancient splits in my body,sex and soul.

So we are now all being asked to step up, to reach back into our connectedness, where we are all linked, in which we can feel that our sexual being is the deepest most beautiful part of being alive which brings with it the flow of life.  We are all connected, and in this connection we all have an impact on each other.  Each of us, our thoughts, our feelings, our actions, are inter-related.  What I feel and think affects you, and what you feel and think affects me.  I am whole, and in my wholeness I wish to link to your wholeness, and yours, so that we can all, all reach our true magnificence as human beings, and shine our lights out into the world.

We owe it to ourselves, to our family and friends, our loved ones and beloveds, our earth and all who live on her, to reach into ourselves, heal the split of fragmentation and live life from our hearts and wholeness today.

I am whole……Use this mantra daily to bring yourself back to who you truly are…

I am open to comments and responses to this series of blogs now – I will try and answer you all, but if you send obscene or profane responses I will probably block you.  Our site is for growth, radiance and magnificence


Deep namaste to you all

Anna xxx

A Beloved Relationship Re-visited

I am going to say this out- loud for all who read this….
I am in a beloved relationship, and we love each other
And we are consciously exploring what comes next…….
You see – we are love, we do love, we express love together…and its not always easy.  
As we grow and become the integrated divine beloveds we are, we may choose to no longer be in relationship, but be more friends, or evolve in other ways….
We have particular histories, as everyone does, and particular needs and issues. So…
So the question becomes…
Do we separate? Do we stay together?
But is this really the right question?
Perhaps the better question,  or questions, for those who are facing this journey with consciousness is –
How much more can I learn from my beloved and he( or she), from me?
Am I still growing? Am I still open to all the ways I have not yet fully opened my heart? Is he still growing? What more is there for him to learn and to open to?
Do I fully commit to my journey of opening to the beloved? Does he?
In what ways are we avoiding our growth and our love?  Are we equally on this journey… and if not , can we somehow change this?
You see I truly live and breathe what I offer here….
I want this for you too – for you to feel that you are in an opening to the beloved relationship WITH YOURSELF first, and that this then is reflected in your outer relationships.
Having an inner relationship with your beloved allows you to begin to fall in love WITH YOURSELF FIRST, so that you can see, feel and care for the inner divine self, male and female, and gently take him and her by the hand along the path of life.
If you cannot do this, then your outer relationships will simply represent the scarred, needy and wounded parts of you, and your love may well not serve a beautiful purpose of growth and juicy joy.
Sometimes,  the relationship has served its purpose and you are no longer meant to be together. Your work, your learning together is done….. this is not failure, however, as  this represents success, you have grown, achieved more learning, self learning, open hearted learning…… 
You do not have to have an outer relationship to be on this path …..though it can often lead to one, one that is deeply satisfying, growthful, loving and fulfilling, as well as painful, challenging, and more……
My beloved and I are currently on this enquiry…. how much further can we go? We have reached a point of statis – somehow on our journey we are recognising that something has to change for us to grow more in love, and we have to ask ourselves if we are ready for those changes, or have we integrated all we can in this particular time of growth together.  We may need to explore new lessons of growth elsewhere……
It is not a failure to admit this – but neither is it right if we are truly avoiding some fears, letting go of more patterns, allowing truly sexual and loving harmony in, etc……. Being an inner and outer beloved equally,,,,, we wish to truly embody this…. Can we?
I am truly committed to my path of opening to the beloved, and so my enquiry will be, where am I on this path of opening so that my outer beloved truly reflects my inner beloved……….
I will let you know how we proceed as we move further on to explore some of the answers…..
If you are also at this stage in your life, consider booking  a session or a Skype session with me to explore where your growth lies…….
We are on this path together….
much love for now

Happy Equinox

Dearest beloveds

Happy Equinox to you all – what does this mean to you?

For me the equinox is a gateway into the divinity of nature – our new growth within and without, that seed of burgeoning life which is my vital sense of self, and which is expressed outwardly in nature becoming softer, opening to the warmth, the new roots deepening and the seeds shooting out of the earth.  –

It is the blowing wind of fire, a dragon of awakening, bringing new directions, new visions, new thoughts of life and art, beauty and love.

It is the balance between inner and outer, when the world is at a sense of stasis – the days are equal to the nights, the dark is equal to the light, but there is a new opening in the breath and in my body, which can feel like  moistness within, the fertile ground for my newness

It is the time for lovers, for sacred sexual beauty, for art, for creative juices to flow – for the rainbow of merging life to reach and climb the ladder of manifestation, and for ecstasy to be placed as a portal to life – in joy and in balance.  This does not mean there are no times of pain, or disharmony,  for nature is finding her balance just as we aim to find ours – but our true human nature once again has the opportunity to be fulfilled, to link to  our earth, mother gaia, who is always benevolent if we trust, honour and respect her needs : for then we share her growth and her wisdom, and our bodies interrelate to her body, and our being entwines with hers.

This equinox I urge you to go inward to ask your body, linking her or him to mother gaia, what is it you wish to manifest in your life today to reach a greater level of fulfilment, love, service and joy?  What seed can you plant at this time which can be supported by the flow of the earth’s juices?  How can you water this seed, so that you move beyond your current sense of self to a more flowing, grateful, deeply human life lived in truth and in honouring your being? What will serve your need to be yourself at this time in your life?

This is what I will be doing tomorrow night, when I will be holding another of my beautiful Thursday evenings  in Bristol UK – in honour of the work of Opening to the Beloved – we will be honouring our body knowledge, reflecting on the time of the equinox as a beautiful time of deepening to what we truly hold of value in our lives now – we will be reaching for more growth and transformation, finding our fierce love and our true right as human beings at these times of change to find our magnificent self.

May you all find what you seek at this time of the year, and may those in the world who are touching pain and fragility, darkness and despair, feel some sense of comfort for their losses and pain.  The earth is truly in a time of change and turbulence, we are all thrown at times in the wind of chaos, and this is the nature of growth and newness – pray with me for a time when we can once again live in harmony and in love with earth and her seasons.Fairy_Land_wallpaper - Copy .



The Body is a Portal to the Soul.


Today I had a most spectacular New Moon Meditation – if that is what it can be called.

I felt my body on fire – I felt my energy expand beyond belief- I felt a flow of such joyous and vibrant energy it was hard to contain it – in fact I moved, and danced a little, as is my way – I felt light and dark, colour and formless, embodied in a most beautiful grace that is almost beyond words – and I felt I had come home to myself.

And I was told this phrase to share:

The Body is a Portal to the Soul

What does this mean for us? Can we  truly touch into our bodies as temples and a guide to our whole sense of mystery, knowing and wholeness? Can our bodies reveal the knowledge and wisdom of our ancestors, and help us find soul in life?

I know how significant this phrase is, for me and many others…….

I have discovered that many of the techniques I was taught over the years for growth, healing, enlightenment etc are simply no longer working for me.

Take meditation for example – I am meant to sit and clear my mind, so that I can reach the light, be mindful, in the present and empty. I am not meant to move, I am not meant to feel my body at all, and I am meant to clear everything of the clutter of my being out.  But is this actually what I need? I need the silence, and I need the formlessness, but do I need this structure and this process? No!

I no longer practice zazen, a form of Zen Buddhist meditation I was taught all those years ago.  Nor any other form of practice such as the mantra practice, though mantras are beautiful.   I no longer deny my body in this mystery of cleansing and clearing.  NO, I breathe into my body and allow my inner self to take me wherever I need to go.  This may include moving, breathing, thinking words, feeling emotions, seeing visions, it may even be the clear light of the soul within.  It is whatever my body shows me it needs. This is my soul talking.

Take shamanic practice, something else I was ‘taught’ almost thirty years ago and still love deeply – I was shown how to drum, using the pace of the heart beat, to rattle with abandon, to use a singing bowl, or use other accessories.  Anything  that allowed my body to reach a trance like state was acceptable, as this was seen as the way to reach and ‘journey’ into  non-ordinary reality in order to affect healing.  Powerful techniques yes, and occasionally they still work! – but I simply do not need them as a structure –  my body is the portal into this non-ordinary reality.  If I wish to go there, she shows me where to go, who to meet, which energies to connect with, how to touch the deep divinity within the layers of my flesh.  I may be called to use these techniques if my body wants this, but only then.  This is the knowledge I have been hiding most of my adult life – that my body knows best.

Take channelling  – I was taught to travel into an inner landscape,  in visualisation, in silence and sitting,  upto a mountain where I would find a sacred space to meet a teacher or guide.  This being  would give me the guidance I could then share with the world, wise words given for specific requests or for healing aims  – But I do none of these things – I simply close my eyes, clear my body, allow myself to listen intently for a calling, for anything in my inner senses that resonate, and the words simply float into my being.  If I am with another, offering healing or similar, the words, thoughts, feelings, sensations and images are always relevant for them.  If I am alone, they are relevant to me.  I never call this channelling now as it is my inner body talking to me.  My body knows. I may have guides or I may not, but they come just however they want, and it is often my inner wisdom  talking! My body….

There are many other examples of how my beautiful body, whose wisdom was neglected for much of my life,  is the true teacher of my growth. Even when i undertook yoga, doing asanas, breathing practices and lying out to feel the breath, I could feel that my true self wanted to follow a different flow – to move, to shake, to feel, to speak, and even yes to make love. My sexual energy was awakened at times in this exploration, the deepest and most beautiful form of energy which is of course the source of life.   I could not easily follow a system which appeared to rigidly make shapes, exercises and breathing styles alien to my body.  But I was ashamed to admit this to my teachers and others, who all seemed to gain such deep satisfaction from these practices.  So I attempted to deny my body her wisdom again, and again, and again.

Now I am listening.  This meditation, if that is what it is called, is telling me the time is now, that to listen to my body is my way.  Never again will I follow a system which is not aligned to my body. And I am not alone.

I am not alone.  There is a movement of women all over the world beginning to wake up to this new system of growth and evolution which involves listening deeply to our bodies.  And of course men too are listening, though I do feel these new forms  bring in the feminine way finally. There are new yoga practices, new dance styles,  new spiritual movement and sound healings, emerging daily.  New feminine styles of spiritual and evolutionary growth are becoming  ready to awaken our bodies.  Now, every time I hear of a new technique I will ask my body ‘ Does it recognise my inner wisdom, my body knowledge?’ and listen closely to the answer.

So my meditation, this evening, has finally given me the validation of my own being, rather than seek it outside myself and outside of my own body. I am body, soul, psyche in one, and all my practices are now aligned to learning my own deep wisdoms. It is time.

Our bodies are the portal to our souls.  Try it tonight!

Anna Grace-Jacobs


Surrendering To What Is…


Dear Beloveds

Today, and for the past few days I have been in solitary retreat on what I will call a healing crisis.

At first this was not by choice…this is often the way when life becomes too busy.   My body had been calling me home for a week or two but I had ignored it.  I had continued in my normal life, with some regular ongoing meditations but with extra demands.  Sometimes I find it hard to say no!  Particularly when part of my life is based on service through therapy, healing and supervision.  So after a most beautiful evening of sacred experience at my ecstatic dance group, which took me to a deep light-filled place of union and open heart, I became  mildly ill with a sore throat and fever.   During the dance I had felt on fire, soft and sparky,  healing and being healed, touching and connecting heart to heart with every being there.  Together we felt harmonized, enriched, rainbowed with our souls purpose pouring out of us. It had been a special night for all of us, and for me it was almost an initiation into my body and soul and heart becoming aligned. This triggered something…

When I woke up in the morning, my world had changed, and I needed to be still.  I resisted for one day, and then I surrendered. I needed to balance the movements, the dancing, the life of service, with some time of ‘being’.

Yes I surrendered, cancelled the whole week, withdrew into myself and have allowed my body to show me the path, all week, to where I need to go, to truly live my life of flow and purpose. I surrendered to this need to  just be, remaining ill but able to go within, to hold the seeds of my being which are the very depth of my true self, showing me how to live and honour my loving self now.

Today, four days on,  during which I have moved through various stages of  inwardness, realisations, letting go of feelings, writings, creating, being, much crying, some laughing, much stillness, little moving…. I experienced a glorious meditation journey.  I entered my inner landscape…during which I was in a waterfall facing the final stage of the deepest grief I hold. I moved beyond a cascading shower of cold bright water  into a crack in a cliff-side .  I allowed my grief to pour through me till I was ready to move beyond it into pure glory and light.  I found the pathway into the earth through that crack in the stone, and this magical journey led me to many realisations and jewels of the heart.

I  surrendered to this experience, allowing myself to feel in my heart, mind, body and soul, aligned to the lessons my body was telling me.  My meditation was felt in all parts of my being, my emotions, my physical self, my spiritual self, my psychological self.  I surrendered to my needs. I had no plan, no outcome, just a need to experience.


Had I not surrendered, I would not have finally reached the place of light in my meditation which is almost indescribable in its magnificence.  An  ancient temple imbued with life, love, longing, truth, golden heart-bathed sacredness.  I was cleansed and cleared from this time of surrender.  I gave myself the space to follow my body’s knowing to a point where I am ready again to emerge.  I will integrate my lessons, realisations, reflections and more into my everyday life as I go once again about my life’s business.  And I will continue to acknowledge my body’s messages to me when I need them.

By surrendering to our body’s wisdom, we learn how it can lead us, show us how to live, reveal what is important in our lives, enable emotions and thoughts to be released or harmonized, gifts are revealed, we honour the rhythms of our own body, of the earth’s cycles and we balance our need for both ‘doing’ and ‘being’.  From surrender to being comes creative life cycles, new visions, new growth needing to be followed up.  Our normal everyday life is forever focused on ‘doing,  working, playing, eating, sleeping’…. so the being part can become lost. Our body  knows this and,  if we listen, it can become our guide, leading us to a sense of harmony and understanding which places both aspects in their rightful place.

I recommend surrendering at least twenty minutes every day!  Find a peaceful place where you will not be disturbed, enter quietly within, relax and tune into your body, allow it to tell you whatever you need to know.  Have no agenda, no need for an outcome, simply  check out what you need to surrender to, breathing into yourself, feeling, recharging, perhaps visioning if that is your way, allowing any emotions, sensations…and just be!  You may be surprised what your body reveals to you!